Pardon ME

Well finally im uploading the ridiculous amount of pics from my sydney trip in fb. couldn't even imagine of uploading it piece by piece here.that would be forever. sorry for the late post.really couldn't help myself with updating my blog coz my life seems kinda full. aniway im just a bit down by my previous assignment . it not much things to do and aint difficult like hell. just, i dont like the brief of the assignment much. designing a 10 m square shelter with basic amneties. the size really limits my imagination and i end up spending more time in designing the form of my shelter whereare the brief specifically intend us to focus more on the space within it. to design it in relation to anthropomorphic quality, considering it universal accessibility and stuff like that which i haven't developed a liking to them yet. it just obvious that i wouldn't get a good grade for this task. thats what upset me most. btw here a plan and an elevation of my shelter. i got the shape intersting enuff to draw people attention but shame on me for not having time to refine its interior and make the space within it more habitable, at the very least, appear as being thoughtful.

Memasak Oi!

Mama, last week try masak nasi ayam gune resepi yg ma bg tu..tapi sayang x sempat nak masak nasik org len dah wat kan dah. sup ayam pon org len buatkn. last2, wat sos ngn kicap je. hahaha. even so, the sos and kicap was superr awesome!! sedap giler bakhang.

Random post.

Yesterday i received a phone call from one of my buddy. not much really, it just that he ask whether i'm interested with a flight offer to Singapore and Bali in January next year. it was on such a short notice but on second thought a 10 days vacation to Singapore and BALI is not something that u get everyday. the only catch is that u need to first go back to M'sia or fly straight away from Australia. it wasn't too bad of a deal but it just a last minute flight ticket to either M'sia or Singapore will cost me like, a fortune. around $700 to be exact. gonna need to say bye2 to summer vacation in Bali. it's okay we'll arrange other trip. Being an international student and having few of my local friends telling stories bout how they have been to Africa, Dubai, India, Argentina and even to KL makes me wonder that the world isn't that big. by exploring to different parts of the world would definitely broaden my insight on culture and humanity. meeting up with new people, learning new things. even the thought of it excites me. :)

Ngehehe

A little sneak peak bout how I'm bout to spend my winter holss!!! weyh I'm beyond excited! but just to clear things up, yess i'm having a winter trip and guys might thinking like, why is it winter now? aint it summer already?? durrh that because im in Australia alright..they re bunch of weird people who celebrate Christmas during scorching hot summer and rite now, we're having stupid winter cold. ok, its not stupid just its too cold. enuff of the rambling, i'll tell u guys what i'm doing. I'M GOING TO SYDNEY!!!

I dont know what different things that Sydney have and Melbourne doesn't but i just know i will enjoy this trip. i hope it will be amazing, no, pliz be AMAZING. dazzle me, surprise me. so my job is to try my best to snap every precious moments there with my lousy BB's camera and hope i wont be a douche and such a lazy ass. =) *big grin. will update it as soon as possible. choww.

:(

i was sad on Father's Day.

Its winter yo!

Im not gonna brag to you bout how wonderful winter is. you might think im mean but someone needs to tell the truth. i hate to be the one crushing your childhood dream but for real, winter sucks! im not being ungrateful or something, it just i would rather bask myself in Malaysia's cheerful sun rather than spending what seems eternity in this gloomy dark chilling mournful place. yep, winter and the sun, they just hate each other. winter real fren is the cruel wind gust. they make a wonderful combo, capable of literally killing souls. and it is just unfortunate that not all Australia will snow. :( u need to climb a mountain to meet those puffy yet cold white snow.

if you dont wear 4 shirts, 2 sweaters, a glove, a jean and a sneaker, then it's a bad bad idea to go out for a walk, let alone walking to the uni. its a miracle if u survived. a miracle indeed. aite,gonna stop rite here. to lazy to further write a thing and pliz put all the blame on mr Winter. bubye zzzzzzzz...

Review

Today we finished 1 very very freakking long architecture review.it is for the design unit and equivalent to normal semester exam. no matter how many time, i will still be nervous..darrgh, who wouldnt by the way. but the thing that make ma soul shivers is the fact that there is a guest reviewer from Melbourne.apparently i know nothing bout her name or her work. stereotypical mind might suggest she's an architect. aite?

the review actually went very well.there is some disagreement in term of concept but yeah, i have my reasons. it was purposely design that way so that it function. i think it might be a good sign when Mirana saw me using her suggested idea and make those hand gesture " I Like it " from far. Im not hoping to get a HD grade, though it will do me good if i can have one again.hehehe, but aniway a Distinction is pretty much enuff for me. I will still be grateful. i guest the review went to well and im elated and feel like shouting it to the world. not good though, really really bad. Boasting get me nowhere. i must learn how to control this happy rush from leaking to every people i met. haha. Im not boasting right now am I ? :P

Deleted..

I deactivated my facebook,
not that shoking really coz i've been wanting to do so like ages ago..
but last nite i got a very weird dream and it just struck me,
'ok this has gone too far, too out of control.'
so i take the honour of deactivating my own account,
though at the cost of few very close friends,
i guess i need to contact them through other means then.
to my little sister;
" nnti abg post lah gmbar2 dekat blog nih"
but not now coz i aint that leisure with time.
i wanna say im sorry too, coz i think i might had cross
certain line in fb friendship and being plain selfish to everyone..
ok lah, its a new day, better grab all the time i can to finish my assignment..
xoxo

Tumpang lalu...

Hahahak.. couldn't believe myself more,
i just blog-walk my own blog..
haish..what to do, i've been hanging my neck with zillions of assignment since the last couple of weeks, nobody says architecture is easy,
and I heed that call. i'm all prepared.
there just this one little thang called, the internet.
always had his way with me, making an hour felt like split second..
ouh and his side-kick, my childhood all time fav dramas,
i can stream them online now..make note, WITHOUT BUFFERING!
just imagine how much virtue i need to summon, to endure this sizzling temptation.
soooo, that kind of summed up why i didn't update my blog recently..
I JUST CANT. *ok, i lied, im lazy.
and one last thing, i notice my 'fellow pandas' had been expending in number.
well i wanna blame my beloved twin though. haha
im not pessimist, i just personally don't feel my blog good enuff for anyone to read it..
it's not informative, nor funny and for sure not controversial.
just things bout my life. that just all.. :P

Mo Mo Mo :)

I wanna share here about little things my bestfrens should know about me. yep, as an entree, first you should know that i'm very timid. when i say 'very', it stands its point. i'm no social beast, so there's no point blabbering every inches of incident that happen in my sordid life. and you can't expect me to break the ice on my own. hahaha. believe me, you'll get tired of waiting. i ain't work that way baby, unless you really caught my attention, then we're talking.

Second is that, i not a very fond advocate of wishing someone's birthday. i once fought with my bestfren coz of this matter. doesnt know it can be that sensitive. though birthday is really important, such merry and joyous day, i still think that some people exaggerate it too much. so, allow me to seek an apology from all of you.first for being too blatant, and second for i may forget you birthday, without saying the appropriate 'Happy birthday' wish.

But but but, today isnt those days. for all i know, one of my bestfren had her birthday just recently. i dont wanna wish you via facebook and sms coz it will just stake up to the pile of wishes and eventually being rendered as just one of them. i got to do it just once in a year, so why dont make it meaningful eh. so here goes, my birthday speech;

" I may have no fancy present to give, i may have no sweet-talks up in my sleaze but i do have one friend i could really rely with. you know, life is full with trodden-hill. it will always knock you down but u get to find the strength to stand still. you were the one who always told me to have faith in myself, you are on your own for no one really care to hold your hand and help. so, im gonna tell you the same. stop shedding tears, and start thinking what good for yourself instead of other. screw what people might think. they dont know the real story, they just dont.this might be the lamest birthday celebration ever. but i personally prefer it that way. Selamat Hari Jadi."

you know who you are. so i guess if you dont notice this post and become emo for very long because i havent wish you any, that must have meant you stopped reading my blog. still im happy on behalf of you. Hope eveything in your life runs smooth and do share it with me. :3

give me time.

Im sorry cause my ignorance had severely hurt some innocent souls. it is never intended. the thing is, the way i see something is different from what the norm would address to it. you cant expect me to be like all the random guys out there. u know i tried. it is hard and i piss to declare it, but to some extend, i.had.fail.i can easily lied to other, but u cant lied to oneself. that's the most irritating part of it.

despite that, dont mistaken my ignorance as to being selfish. you all should be grateful, very grateful indeed for not being burden with heaps of burden. you already good just the way you are. dont ever think of altering it to something else. you have no idea how some people crave to lead just one simple life, away from insanity.

right now my life is a constant weary. if there's still people who able to bear reading this piece of post, then im flattered. u managed to made me smile for a moment. but what i really need right now is time. to sort this mess in my mind. Cheers!

O.o

I keep getting dreams about someone, and just why is that? sighh..how i hope someone could ditch me an answer to this uncertainty.it freaking mess up with me.in the end of the day, i still know nothing. so dear rusty brain, stop doing those pre-concious messages via things like DREAM.

' E N C O R E '

Bravo. sometimes i just feel like da world being very unfair to me. it's not nice to maim my every aspects of life. there's not a single thing i truly feel contended having. having shitty friends that make you even sulkier..yeah, i agree with you. lets us hurried find a place to settle down.never realize that i'm on the verge of rebuke. maybe i should just announce it to the whole world. just call me 'keling' the next time you saw me. i'm dead serious.. matter fact, my granpa did come from INDIA. so, it's in da blood. i'm made by God, pitch black. i'm very sorry though for not being as fair as u peeps..dont know colour scheme are part of the requirement for making friends..maybe being black is da same as being ugly..who would dare to be seen in daylight walking with someone ugly.. so, that's why i have really few good friend. fuck discrimination. as that is not enuff, my physique is far-fetched from being a man. it left me with no charm of whatsoever. prove of how loser am i at attracting women..up to da point dat sometimes i just dont care to even try..hehe..just how screwed i could be? .. yeah, there's a saying ' every man hunger for love, we get pulled wherever we find love'. it's true. but still, life denied me from being passionate..

its never everyone faults. they don't know the whole story. the problem is, they can never will.so......if u just happen to read this crap post, i'll kindly ask you to just forget bout it. just MYOB.

LOL.

dont know how ? dont know why ?
just feels like my mood been sync with the existence of my new DSLR.
since i basically still dunt have it in my possession.
my mood would also linger on.
my mind, heart and soul been completely shut from the rest of the world.
kinda funny though.
to being drew to every emotional songs, and having it tuned whole day long..
they resonated too strong. feels like it was made for you.
such depressing nuisance.
what being funnier is that i wont keep the feeling caged out..
couldn't afford any of my mate to sniff my invulnerability..
hahaha..ironic for me to care much of a man's pride.

so yeah..

my advisor would prescript me with some plz-dunt-emo talks though.
but you dont get the chance to bask in sorrow and despair all the time.
so would be better if i just enjoy the ride..
join me if you want. HAHA.

Move on.

I just hope my words will catch up will you. At last,it's good news. Im moving on. though it isn't the perfect word to describe this whole mess. still,thanks for all da memories. i'll never forget bout a single piece of them.but if in da future we can't met again. it fine with me. Guess my 5 years resolution ain't dat strong.

Fuck golok, saying im acting all girlie. frail, weakness. need a new pair of attitude afterward. people changes. even in some cases to the horror, still some people change for the better. some retreat not because they ain't strong. they just letting it go.

I wanna announce something, i will deactivate my dilapidated fb account..it just a swell of mess dat i dont care enuff to clean it up. catch me on twitter, (najibzailani). Once i get my DSLR, i'll back to my real purpose of blogging. Sharing little happiness of life with the dearest of my friends. :)

"You know I cant take one more step towards you,
cause all dat waiting is regret,
don't you know im not your ghost anymore. "

Christina Perri

Dream and Misunderstanding..

Hav u ever dreamt of someone that suppose to have no relationship with you?

but they suppose to be just a friend of urs..
but u dreamt of them ALOT.
how that suppose to mean then?
could it be they are someone important to you, yet you unconsciously not realizing it..
or, it just devil's play..
hahahaa. how such silly matter bugging me.
a thing for sure, this kind of uncertainty causing me major misunderstanding..
FUCK up for sure..
should i ignore it?

This is it.

So, this is it.
this is the feeling and i'm so overwhelmed by it.
hehehe..who knows that this day will really come by.
though it still very much like a dream,
when i used to feel awe by what Teacher Huda had told us.
of her marvelous journey in Victoria, New Zealand.
how i would then secretly put it on my wish list.
"tce, i wanna be just like you. i wanna go to those amazing places too.."

it feel just like days ago,
when those disappointing news, painfully cling to my dream.
such a pain in da ass.
JPA did'nt call me, either way, it means i'm stranded in UM.
i kind off succumb to the despair and start giving my heart to da uni.
i think, " its okay.i'll grow here.. there's still good fren by my side (it's Atin)."
and da new culture that higher institution always fool you,
those majestic, suffocating ambience..
that made you shiver the moment you step a toe inside its massive gate.
UM has it alrite.
just when i think all hope is gone,
there's the wake-up call..
never knew that KBU will open its stingy arm to embrace us.
and all of a sudden, im among da JPA students.

it sure feel like just a minute ago..
i'm having new frens. the one i vow to cherish,
to hold very dear to me.
such naivety back then..
for i was so young and immature.
a hatching in this sordid world.
asphyxiated by turbulent emotions..
i made mistakes, hurt people closest to me..
for a person to bear faith in you
i taint it. im ashamed. fill with sadness.
yet, i know a year is as good a blink of eyes.
i ended up putting a wall in between..
in hope when the year pass by,
i'll be able to put a smile, when they finally depart.for good.
how one shoud'nt cut a frenship ties..
for the wound will never clot. it will bled.
hahaha..never knew i'll trouble myself for da sake of other..
i dare put my study at stake,
how ungrateful lad can i be..
i admit, my college life were a trough in my life..
still what goes round, comes round..
i can achieve far better than what i got in da end.
screw those details. just an eye-sore.

it hell feels like it just a moment ago.
when God give me a second chance in life..
im flying. im living to my dream.
and just wait, what a miracle 5 years can be..

Hebatnya korg~

Sedar kah korg taun nih agak special skit drpd tahun2 yang sebelum ni? pasai pa?? bukan, bukan pasai tahun nih tahun babi, kita baru tahun arnab klu ikot kalender cino ya..kenapa kalender cina xde tahun kucin pon ak xtau? tp yg 2 x penting.x de kaitan pon. nak habaq mai pasal kisah tentang cinta dan hari jadi nya..

Nak dibuat alkisah, suma manusia punya cinta dlm hati. be it ur parents, ur cars, ur sports, ur money, ur clothes..ad byk yg kita cintai kt dlm dunia nih..hang kacau sikit, satg mengamuk satu kampung. lagi2 klu yang dicintai itu buah-hatinya..2 la jantung hati dia, dengutan nadi dia, udara utk bernafas dia..demi adinda, lautan berapi sanggup kekanda renangi(hg nak berenang kt NERAKA ka?? =.=)..2 la antara benda cayunk2 yang dah klasik tp x lekang dek zaman.

"You are my other half, You complete me." bertapa ayat ini benar, rata2 sume golongan yg sedang berpacaran tahu akn maklumat peribadi Si Dia umpama kamu kenal diri kamu sendiri..paling cikai pon korg mesti tau pasal b'day dier..such joyous day, who would'nt want to see their loved one, soak in ecstasy of happiness..to smile all day long.. ak pon nak. ad org lagi power, diorg boley hafal sume harijadi kawan2 dier. even yg mmg hide info dorg kt fb pon dier boley tau nak wish b'day biler. HEBAT! :) hehe..nih mmg dia 'cinta' sume kawan2 dia kot..baguih2..bukan dosa pon.. dpt pahala g..

Tapi nak tanya la skit hgpa ad dak member2 yg lahir tang 23 April 571?? Ad sape2 yg hafal ka?? awat, xde sapa kenal ka nih tarikh lahir sapa? OWH, ptot la..skrg nih org guna kalender orang putih..sapa g dok kalut pakai kalender islam..mmg la tarikh 12 Rabiul Awal ni tukar2 sikit..ala xde sapa perasan pon kaann..bukan nya penting nak igt..RASULULLAH bukannya boyfren kita pon..lagipun, im not single kay, im in a RELATIONSHIP with *tuttut*..sy nih dah 'berpunya'..buat apa jaga tepi kain ORG LAEN..kaaann??

Sebenarnya sgt sebak arini cause what i've said is basically what happen nowadays. peringatan utk diri sendiri dan org laen, sapa ja lah diri kita klu nak compare dgn RASULULLAH (S.A.W)..baginda itu kekasihnya tak lain tak bukan, Sang Pencinta, Al-Wadud itu sendiri..Cinta Allah itu paling Agung..tidakkah kita terasa bahawa cinta kita itu penuh hina?sepatutnya kita yang datang merangkak2 ingin mengemis, menangis, menagih cinta drpd RASULULLAH, Pemimpin kita, Imam kita..bukan Baginda yang patut bersusah-payah utk kekal dalam peredaran zaman, risau dikikis masa, hilang dari fikiran umatnya..

saya bertambah sebak kerana, para muslimin dan muslimat serata dunia termasuk saya, kesedaran dan cintanya pada Rasulullah hanya kekal untuk 1 HARI SAHAJA..we truly are an ignorant followers of the Prophet. We truly are being the number 1 hypocrite by posting "Salam Maulidur Rasul"..xde lah marah org post2 mcm 2..dpt pahala besar pon..mengingati junjungan besar.cuma harap tiap hari pon kita selawat ke atas nabi dan Ahlul Bait sekalian..semoga kita sentiasa abadikn Rasulullah dlm doa2 kita.. Amin3.


p/s: Hepi Birthday Rasulullah.. :):):):)

Skill Memasak Aku..

Awal2 dulu pernah terdetik nak mengasah bakat memasak ak yg mmg cambest ala2 Jamie Olliver gitu..nak berguru ngn x laen x bukan, dewa memasak mak ak.. then, ak pon mula lah bertapa dkt dapur dimana makanan yg sgt finger-licking-good disediakan. barulah ak tau yg nk melanjutkan PhD in Cooking nih sgt lah susah..hahaa..last2 ak sekadar puas hati ngn ijazah master yg mmg ak dah lama ad.. well, mama, dun have to worry..ank mak nih xkan mati kelaparan dkt oz nnti..antara hidangan specialties ak adalahhhh..jeng2:

1) Mee Goreng. nih ringan2 je..stok masak time boring2..


2) Burger Handmade punya..yg nih lak kira sarapan kebiasaan ak la..


3) Nih another dish for my breakfast, puurrrfect omelette..

4) toast..daaa..baby pon boley wat roti bakar cmnih..


5) okay, tk yg berat2 skit..ak slalo prepare speghatti, meatball 2 kacang aih..kawan2 yg nasib baek pernah r rasa spaghetti meatball ak time posa2 dulu..mmg sahuq yg terbaek time uh kan?



5) last2 skali, hidangan paling cikai lah..Ayam Goreennngggg..







p/s: bon apettite!! siot lapaq balik dah..hahaaha.. :P

Ouch!

Aku sgt terkesima bila tadi tgh lepak2 tgk tv, mak ak boley tanye, 'najib x ade girlfriend lg ke.....? '. f.y.i isu2 pasal girlfren/boifen nih sgt laa sensitif..nak tambah pedas skit, elok lah time 2 korg still sigle-mingle.. =.= dgn tamparan yg begitu dasyat, ak dgn penuh tawaduk nya jawab, 'mana ad lg ma, nnti lah crik dkt Geelong.' ini sume gara2, sepupu ak yg x smpi sebulan dah khawin, dah dpt berita baik,PREGNANT..x sia2 honeymoon dkt Bali..baby first night lah ni..hahaha.. maybe pas2 mak ak terpikir, biler la pulak ak nk dpt cucu..dush2..ma, najib study pon x habis lagi..

Berita uh rupanya memberi kesan yg lebey dlm..skrg ak tgh dok penin pasal status ak yg masih single nih.dlm kes ak yg kurng berpengalaman ber-cayunk2 dgn ramai gadis, mmg agak masalah r nak kasi satu pon sangkut dkt ak..so mcm agak baik klu ak dah mula try cuba merisik mana gadis yg berkenan di hati..masalah pon, x ramai yg menarik minat ak..chewah! mcm nk kata taste tinggi lah..tp mcm betul pon.hahaha..

Time2 mcm ni jugak la tetiba apa yg ustaz2 kt sekolah dok tazkirah dtg blik..nasihatlah yg couple itu mendekati zina, zina haram, so couple pon haram..dush.senang lak wat equation kan..tp rational nya dorg ckp bercinta stail islam, elok lepas khawin bru kita bermesra2, bermanja2, bersayang2..

Argghh!! last2 serabut otak ak.sal nk bina masjid nih besar tanggungjawab oi..larat ke ak nk pikul skrg nih..ilmu ap pon xde g..and kawan2 yg rapat ngn ak tau ap yg baru jadi dkt ak baru2 nih..with this recent state of mine, will i ever be able to get a girl..tayah ckp nk jadi mat jiwang2 ah, nak tackle sorg awek pon ak x tau still boley ke x?? arghhh..tensen2..