Review

Today we finished 1 very very freakking long architecture review.it is for the design unit and equivalent to normal semester exam. no matter how many time, i will still be nervous..darrgh, who wouldnt by the way. but the thing that make ma soul shivers is the fact that there is a guest reviewer from Melbourne.apparently i know nothing bout her name or her work. stereotypical mind might suggest she's an architect. aite?

the review actually went very well.there is some disagreement in term of concept but yeah, i have my reasons. it was purposely design that way so that it function. i think it might be a good sign when Mirana saw me using her suggested idea and make those hand gesture " I Like it " from far. Im not hoping to get a HD grade, though it will do me good if i can have one again.hehehe, but aniway a Distinction is pretty much enuff for me. I will still be grateful. i guest the review went to well and im elated and feel like shouting it to the world. not good though, really really bad. Boasting get me nowhere. i must learn how to control this happy rush from leaking to every people i met. haha. Im not boasting right now am I ? :P

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I deactivated my facebook,
not that shoking really coz i've been wanting to do so like ages ago..
but last nite i got a very weird dream and it just struck me,
'ok this has gone too far, too out of control.'
so i take the honour of deactivating my own account,
though at the cost of few very close friends,
i guess i need to contact them through other means then.
to my little sister;
" nnti abg post lah gmbar2 dekat blog nih"
but not now coz i aint that leisure with time.
i wanna say im sorry too, coz i think i might had cross
certain line in fb friendship and being plain selfish to everyone..
ok lah, its a new day, better grab all the time i can to finish my assignment..
xoxo

Tumpang lalu...

Hahahak.. couldn't believe myself more,
i just blog-walk my own blog..
haish..what to do, i've been hanging my neck with zillions of assignment since the last couple of weeks, nobody says architecture is easy,
and I heed that call. i'm all prepared.
there just this one little thang called, the internet.
always had his way with me, making an hour felt like split second..
ouh and his side-kick, my childhood all time fav dramas,
i can stream them online now..make note, WITHOUT BUFFERING!
just imagine how much virtue i need to summon, to endure this sizzling temptation.
soooo, that kind of summed up why i didn't update my blog recently..
I JUST CANT. *ok, i lied, im lazy.
and one last thing, i notice my 'fellow pandas' had been expending in number.
well i wanna blame my beloved twin though. haha
im not pessimist, i just personally don't feel my blog good enuff for anyone to read it..
it's not informative, nor funny and for sure not controversial.
just things bout my life. that just all.. :P

Mo Mo Mo :)

I wanna share here about little things my bestfrens should know about me. yep, as an entree, first you should know that i'm very timid. when i say 'very', it stands its point. i'm no social beast, so there's no point blabbering every inches of incident that happen in my sordid life. and you can't expect me to break the ice on my own. hahaha. believe me, you'll get tired of waiting. i ain't work that way baby, unless you really caught my attention, then we're talking.

Second is that, i not a very fond advocate of wishing someone's birthday. i once fought with my bestfren coz of this matter. doesnt know it can be that sensitive. though birthday is really important, such merry and joyous day, i still think that some people exaggerate it too much. so, allow me to seek an apology from all of you.first for being too blatant, and second for i may forget you birthday, without saying the appropriate 'Happy birthday' wish.

But but but, today isnt those days. for all i know, one of my bestfren had her birthday just recently. i dont wanna wish you via facebook and sms coz it will just stake up to the pile of wishes and eventually being rendered as just one of them. i got to do it just once in a year, so why dont make it meaningful eh. so here goes, my birthday speech;

" I may have no fancy present to give, i may have no sweet-talks up in my sleaze but i do have one friend i could really rely with. you know, life is full with trodden-hill. it will always knock you down but u get to find the strength to stand still. you were the one who always told me to have faith in myself, you are on your own for no one really care to hold your hand and help. so, im gonna tell you the same. stop shedding tears, and start thinking what good for yourself instead of other. screw what people might think. they dont know the real story, they just dont.this might be the lamest birthday celebration ever. but i personally prefer it that way. Selamat Hari Jadi."

you know who you are. so i guess if you dont notice this post and become emo for very long because i havent wish you any, that must have meant you stopped reading my blog. still im happy on behalf of you. Hope eveything in your life runs smooth and do share it with me. :3

give me time.

Im sorry cause my ignorance had severely hurt some innocent souls. it is never intended. the thing is, the way i see something is different from what the norm would address to it. you cant expect me to be like all the random guys out there. u know i tried. it is hard and i piss to declare it, but to some extend, i.had.fail.i can easily lied to other, but u cant lied to oneself. that's the most irritating part of it.

despite that, dont mistaken my ignorance as to being selfish. you all should be grateful, very grateful indeed for not being burden with heaps of burden. you already good just the way you are. dont ever think of altering it to something else. you have no idea how some people crave to lead just one simple life, away from insanity.

right now my life is a constant weary. if there's still people who able to bear reading this piece of post, then im flattered. u managed to made me smile for a moment. but what i really need right now is time. to sort this mess in my mind. Cheers!

O.o

I keep getting dreams about someone, and just why is that? sighh..how i hope someone could ditch me an answer to this uncertainty.it freaking mess up with me.in the end of the day, i still know nothing. so dear rusty brain, stop doing those pre-concious messages via things like DREAM.

' E N C O R E '

Bravo. sometimes i just feel like da world being very unfair to me. it's not nice to maim my every aspects of life. there's not a single thing i truly feel contended having. having shitty friends that make you even sulkier..yeah, i agree with you. lets us hurried find a place to settle down.never realize that i'm on the verge of rebuke. maybe i should just announce it to the whole world. just call me 'keling' the next time you saw me. i'm dead serious.. matter fact, my granpa did come from INDIA. so, it's in da blood. i'm made by God, pitch black. i'm very sorry though for not being as fair as u peeps..dont know colour scheme are part of the requirement for making friends..maybe being black is da same as being ugly..who would dare to be seen in daylight walking with someone ugly.. so, that's why i have really few good friend. fuck discrimination. as that is not enuff, my physique is far-fetched from being a man. it left me with no charm of whatsoever. prove of how loser am i at attracting women..up to da point dat sometimes i just dont care to even try..hehe..just how screwed i could be? .. yeah, there's a saying ' every man hunger for love, we get pulled wherever we find love'. it's true. but still, life denied me from being passionate..

its never everyone faults. they don't know the whole story. the problem is, they can never will.so......if u just happen to read this crap post, i'll kindly ask you to just forget bout it. just MYOB.